you see its not just you who's paranoid
I'm too
fear the must have for paralysis
i have no inkling how many are aware
..I am paralyzed
thought process works fine
this is a kind of physical paralysis
it is hard to convince myself to speak
speak out my thoughts and opinions
the reason is fear
fear of being plagiarized
fear of being slandered again
fear of being black-marked again
fear of being threatened with death again
fear of being forced upon by bullies
fear of a past wanting to come back
fear of those disgusting tongue-waggers dancing on my life
fear of hurting my people from anger and rage filled over those assholes I mentioned above
fear of people intruding into every minute of my life
fear of those people cooking up their pathetic stories
fear of people's envy
all because I've seen jealous people ruin my life
all because those cooked up stories about me reached my ears
all because those vacant threats made by brutal people are very impacting on a child's mind
all because I was a witness to that violence and threats at that young age
all because I'm forced to not forget my past
all because I considered those who thought they were enemies, as my dearest friends
all because I have lost the trust in human beings to remember the beauty of life
all because I have lost the trust in humans that they will not hurt me again
all because I don't understand how a person who does not know you well, holds a grudge on you
all because I still cannot comprehend why anyone slanders without reason
the more physically paralysed I am, the less use I make of my intelligence
if this is what they who did what they did when they did anything concerning hurting my life
..it seems like they have succeeded.
Let them know whoever they are, that their goal has been achieved.
many told me to ignore it
many told me we do not have the time to think so much about others
but no...everybody has time's reins in their hands
if you can find time to ask a person's life in detail, if you have time to read a biography, if you have time to gossip, you have time to bitch about someone,..then, yes, you do have time enough to hint to people, that one particular person isn't what seems to be..then those "duh" people start looking from your perspective...you see because everybody is paranoid..so everybody does not believe in what he sees or hears...nobody believes in his own ability to gauge a personality...nobody sees that he/she can make decisions and conclusions by him/herself.
so those who slander, just love the idea of bitching and gossiping...that way, the more they talk the more people will think he/she knows more, the more i-want-spoon-fed-answers kind of people believe in words without clarifying...that way, the more the people they gossip with, more the number of people will have heard the same story, confirming that even the most skeptical mind will believe in the newly cooked up story.
I haven't been able to ignore such people...because I still can't find out the reason why they waste their time in crapping lives..Is it an easy way to succeed in their lives? Do they regard people as obstacles in their paths, and so ruining a person's reputation, deletes that person from their so-called 'obstacle list'? Probably, those who live for competition, are the ones who are insecure. Probably, its the insecurity (paranoia?) that leads them to their follies and vices, jealousy and envy, hatred, grudges and greed.
In school years, I used to feel ashamed of myself for not feeling angry towards those who ruined the happiness of my family. I have always felt pity for such people, for they have never been able to think beyond. They cannot accommodate the Universe in their lives. But now after a decade of being in their constant intrusion I only fill with anger and react with rage, when they attempt to prod and poke and trample upon me and my family again. After a spite, I realise I still don't hate them, and the only change is that now I can react and shut their traps myself.
Yes, I know I'm being altruistic. But I can feel pain, yet no hatred. Shouldn't that mean that you CAN love everyone, you CAN love EVERY being, your love can be UNIVERSAL?
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Saturday, October 20, 2007
India is being dictated!!!
The internet service providers are being blamed for the third party sites that are visited by the individuals. this could either lead to third party sites being blocked by either the government or the service providers.
Basically, the government has just found an excuse to watch over every individual's personal networking. Thus, restricting open talk and open forums. Today an individual citizen has become proactive in fighting the government's policies, the red tapism, has become less ignorant about his rights not just as a citizen but as a human. He has finally become aware of the Earth needing protection from mankind himself. Any proactive effort is thwarted by people who just are addicted to land-grabbing and money-making. The more an open-book system the goevernment becomes, the less ease to the pot-bellied politicians to make black money.
Why doesn't the government first look into matters at hand? Politicians with jail terms, convictions, being suspects in murders, assault, extortion are prancing around the country drinking booze and gobbling up lands that belong to our great farmers. Nobody is even giving two thoughts about those farmers who committed suicide. Who dragged them down the drain? Their families are still without finances, starving, without jobs that were promised to them.
The major bigwigs are now probably scared of being spoken of so openly. This is the India Shining where freedom of speech(freedom to openly speak the 'truth' not cooked up stories like most of the media), is accepted and practiced. This is the new generation that the big bellied politicos are scared of. So doesn't matter if they've only gone till their 8th grade in academics, they will try to shutdown and close doors and build new doors and obstacles to stop the new age Indian from claiming his rights.
They are just doing what they have been doing for the past half a century. Imitate the US. But they can't see the foolishness behind their actions. They, the government, are killing their future generations(and not just those of the common citizens), by blindly following something that they don't understand. More like the Pied Piper with blind mice following.
Creating fear in the peoples' minds has been a long known dark game played by governments.
Basically, the government has just found an excuse to watch over every individual's personal networking. Thus, restricting open talk and open forums. Today an individual citizen has become proactive in fighting the government's policies, the red tapism, has become less ignorant about his rights not just as a citizen but as a human. He has finally become aware of the Earth needing protection from mankind himself. Any proactive effort is thwarted by people who just are addicted to land-grabbing and money-making. The more an open-book system the goevernment becomes, the less ease to the pot-bellied politicians to make black money.
Why doesn't the government first look into matters at hand? Politicians with jail terms, convictions, being suspects in murders, assault, extortion are prancing around the country drinking booze and gobbling up lands that belong to our great farmers. Nobody is even giving two thoughts about those farmers who committed suicide. Who dragged them down the drain? Their families are still without finances, starving, without jobs that were promised to them.
The major bigwigs are now probably scared of being spoken of so openly. This is the India Shining where freedom of speech(freedom to openly speak the 'truth' not cooked up stories like most of the media), is accepted and practiced. This is the new generation that the big bellied politicos are scared of. So doesn't matter if they've only gone till their 8th grade in academics, they will try to shutdown and close doors and build new doors and obstacles to stop the new age Indian from claiming his rights.
They are just doing what they have been doing for the past half a century. Imitate the US. But they can't see the foolishness behind their actions. They, the government, are killing their future generations(and not just those of the common citizens), by blindly following something that they don't understand. More like the Pied Piper with blind mice following.
Creating fear in the peoples' minds has been a long known dark game played by governments.
Monday, October 8, 2007
whatmorecouldisay
"This is just the beginning" has become history. Soon man himself is going to be fighting for survival again. But that might just be the end of the story. Because this fight for survival might just be the last one that man could ever fight. More talk on war is just a coward's way of running away from the bigger truth. That Earth is definitely going to change in its way it appears, the way it lives exposed to the Sun.
The blue-green-brown-white just a century from now, might look grey-orange-red-black and then everything might just be white-hot...
Nobody is bothered today to look at anything green. The adults today hardly remember that the greens they eat come from the plants and trees they want to cut down for small and selfish land-grabbing addiction they've got.
This temptation of acquiring as much "property" subtracts the hard truths that can smack you in the face when you confront them. Neither man nor man's creations will have the necessity to exist long. Nature will always wipe out that which tries to destroy it. Nature will definitely make it unworthy for man to live on Earth again. I will be happy that Earth will be uninhabitable for man, that man who thinks like he does today.
If there is something I pray for, it is but to see some sense in human beings to ensure that they don't hurt the living beings that have been surviving with mankind for centuries together, and leave this place habitable for millions of generations more.
There is some kind of mutated meme that has been passed on across society that goes like this: "I am not going to live beyond 100 years. I would like to enjoy and exploit everything on Earth before I die. Then who gives a damn about twenty generations down the line. I live for the moment, so I can do and undo anything I like. I will litter this planet with all sorts of shit. Anyway, I am not going to live long to feel the stink. Who cares!"
Life today is but a Rat-race, where the people are the mice and the president is the Pied Piper. Their cheese is in Piper's hands and the cheese comes in different flavors: pay packets of 40-60 thousand per month, holiday packages for your family, one Bentley if you run a little more for Piper, a one-acre plot if you work (25)hours per day for 10 more years for the Piper, pay Piper 10 grand for a 1 grand per month job. Run little mice run! For your cheese is just out of reach. But you don't see the Rat-catcher right behind you. He/She/It is called Nature!
I know one who is a Masters in Organic Chemistry. He threw a non-degradable plastic packet of Lays on the side of the road just a yard away from a small dust-bin. When I questioned his actions, he had prompt justification: I am creating work for the people who sweep the roads in the mornings. Why should they sit without work when there's no garbage on the road.
For all that was worth, I tried to explain, roads have trees on their sides. These trees shed leaves. The wind blows soil everywhere. If these settle on the road it becomes unsuitable for the vehicles to trod on. Hence the morning sweepers. Not for stupid people who litter all around saying they are the creators!
Further more, when recently I met him again, he was off for his PhD to the United States of America. We were talking about Global Warming. According to this same friend of mine, the increase in number and intensity of Hurricanes is good, both for the planet and humans.
what I would say is this doctor of philosophy doesn't really understand geophysics.
Earth is definitely trying to re-balance itself to its old days. But what common man does not see is that Earth does the balancing act with drastic change. By drastic change, I only mean drastic in terms of the "human perspective". I don't see any human is going to survive this changing process to tell stories about it to its grandchildren. Humans are but creatures of Earth. Nothing more.
Its more like "That was the beginning of this end"
The blue-green-brown-white just a century from now, might look grey-orange-red-black and then everything might just be white-hot...
Nobody is bothered today to look at anything green. The adults today hardly remember that the greens they eat come from the plants and trees they want to cut down for small and selfish land-grabbing addiction they've got.
This temptation of acquiring as much "property" subtracts the hard truths that can smack you in the face when you confront them. Neither man nor man's creations will have the necessity to exist long. Nature will always wipe out that which tries to destroy it. Nature will definitely make it unworthy for man to live on Earth again. I will be happy that Earth will be uninhabitable for man, that man who thinks like he does today.
If there is something I pray for, it is but to see some sense in human beings to ensure that they don't hurt the living beings that have been surviving with mankind for centuries together, and leave this place habitable for millions of generations more.
There is some kind of mutated meme that has been passed on across society that goes like this: "I am not going to live beyond 100 years. I would like to enjoy and exploit everything on Earth before I die. Then who gives a damn about twenty generations down the line. I live for the moment, so I can do and undo anything I like. I will litter this planet with all sorts of shit. Anyway, I am not going to live long to feel the stink. Who cares!"
Life today is but a Rat-race, where the people are the mice and the president is the Pied Piper. Their cheese is in Piper's hands and the cheese comes in different flavors: pay packets of 40-60 thousand per month, holiday packages for your family, one Bentley if you run a little more for Piper, a one-acre plot if you work (25)hours per day for 10 more years for the Piper, pay Piper 10 grand for a 1 grand per month job. Run little mice run! For your cheese is just out of reach. But you don't see the Rat-catcher right behind you. He/She/It is called Nature!
I know one who is a Masters in Organic Chemistry. He threw a non-degradable plastic packet of Lays on the side of the road just a yard away from a small dust-bin. When I questioned his actions, he had prompt justification: I am creating work for the people who sweep the roads in the mornings. Why should they sit without work when there's no garbage on the road.
For all that was worth, I tried to explain, roads have trees on their sides. These trees shed leaves. The wind blows soil everywhere. If these settle on the road it becomes unsuitable for the vehicles to trod on. Hence the morning sweepers. Not for stupid people who litter all around saying they are the creators!
Further more, when recently I met him again, he was off for his PhD to the United States of America. We were talking about Global Warming. According to this same friend of mine, the increase in number and intensity of Hurricanes is good, both for the planet and humans.
what I would say is this doctor of philosophy doesn't really understand geophysics.
Earth is definitely trying to re-balance itself to its old days. But what common man does not see is that Earth does the balancing act with drastic change. By drastic change, I only mean drastic in terms of the "human perspective". I don't see any human is going to survive this changing process to tell stories about it to its grandchildren. Humans are but creatures of Earth. Nothing more.
Its more like "That was the beginning of this end"
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