A new friend, believe in coincidences or not, goes by the name of Siddharth(a) [I say that, though, I have just been introduced to him, he has attained enlightenment and that state of Realization of Life that I term as an essential to survive on Earth AND the Universe]; today happened to describe the 'Lost for Words' to 'High Hopes' transition and its interpretation when you are doped and high. You'll know what I mean if you've heard Pink Floyd's Division Bell.
The truth that the use of substance to achieve the high required to go deep into the essence of Floyd is a necessity is a farce. What possibility exists is that the early teens are the 'perpetually-undoped-high-point' of Life where any form of substance is not required to attain the level of realization associated with all of Floyd and all about Life. Pink Floyd IS the substance that I have used to attain my level of enlightenment. It is only today that I believe I have ever confessed to this fact that though Music has been my life I never gave the credit to the Doors and Floyd to have helped me get to where I am.
There was a debate that followed which was based on whether it is necessary to be depressed to feel Happy. Actually it was more of a debate whether you need to be depressed to be at the peak of creativity and I say yes you have to be. Tchaikovsky composed master pieces but he was in such a high state of depression that he did end up killing himself. You would know if you've heard the Nutcracker or the Swan Lake the true-forever-famous compositions/ballets. The ballets became famous because of the compositions.
What I believe is that happiness entirely depends on the individual perspective but in the true Universal sense would not be complete if there is no feeling of dread or there has never been a point in the person's life where he or she has felt the BLUEST or UTTERLY DEPRESSED or UTTERLY USELESS and HOPELESS. For those who think they are and they can be perfectly happy they are living a fake life. Without understanding the depth of disastrous lives being lived around you, your life is seriously of no use on this Earth or this Universe. Complete happiness would come only out of complete selfishness, and being selfish has disastrous side-effects, maybe not to the one who believes but to the people around him or her.
One of my friends probably confused being Happy with being at Peace with the Self. These are two different aspects of feeling in the Human Mind. You cannot be one with yourself if you haven't understood the two limits that are mandatory end points that define your character: The lowest and most depressed level and the highest level of TRUE happiness(which is not really easily described in spoken or written words). These two levels are completely different in each and every human being or living being on this planet. There is no meaning, there rather would be no point in even speaking on this topic, if I would generalize the high and low points.
When a person does generalize he/she is entirely dependent on assumptions. Generalizing is nothing but bringing out an average definition based on your assumptions, which are based on your observations and your interpretation of these observations are definitely based on further assumptions. This is where Grouping or Compartmentalizing different aspects, situations, people, characteristics etc. .... all come into picture.
A 'perfectly' happy person would be entirely reliant on others creating the HAPPY situations for him/her. He/she must have the simplest yet most luxurious life. You know what I mean? I mean NO WORRIES. A 'perfectly' and 'permanently' happy person has NO connections with the outside world but only with him/her-self. Why? ....because when there are connections be it emotional or physical, you have a probability of 1 where one particular connection would indefinitely over time have to BREAK AWAY from the person... and that broken link only leaves negative thoughts/energy/feelings. ONLY NEGATIVE! Beings on this planet survive on the consistent linking and breaking of these connections.
So how can a 'perfectly/permanently' Happy person live with such connections and CONSISTENTLY remain happy and at peace with himself????!!!
No. He'd have to be a socially isolated life with all 'supplies' provided!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...and even he wouldn't be happy if one item out of the supplies go missing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Know what I mean???How can any being survive without a connection of any kind to his/her/its surrounding???!!!
Those of you who have short-term happy-happy goals of having a ten digit salary/owning the car of the decade/having the 'best'-'trendy'-outfit-of-the-times/talking in the style or hep-garbled-language of the millennium(like the one filled with acronyms today)...., I am sorry but you people are desperate in search of a False Enlightenment...and you might end up in retirement years full of disappointment and regret. I feel very sorry to say that you DO fall into the stereotypically tunnel-visioned group of people. I've always felt bad that I have met so many young minds who believe that materialistic attitudes toward life will make them happy for eternity. Don't they ever see that this kind of fun and happiness is just a temporary feeling and not the kind of Happiness they try to associate it with?
Like I said a few hours ago to my friends, to attain the highest point of your achievable feeling of happiness you have to have gone through your deepest low point in life i.e. the most depressed you've ever been. And it is true that if you have been through your depression at an early age AND have been able to get out of it you will know that being one with Nature AND being one with the Universe gives you the indescribable sense of happiness.
Partying, booze, constant socializing, buying Branded clothes, dope, having the trendiest accessories, following a trend like the 'Himesh Reshammiya' trend where you walk like he walks, wear clothes like he does, talk like he talks, sing like he sings EVEN though YOU think that he's got a voice too nasal... then how can you call yourself an individual if you are not letting YOUR point of view come into the picture!!!???
[*Himesh Reshammiya fans-please don't take offense though I don't really expect you wouldn't. Why... because that could've been Amir Khan or Abhishek Bacchan or Tom Cruise or Bill Gates or whoever-with-a-famous-tag too, in the above paraphrase.]
That apart the whole topic of the debate that had occurred was whether depression rules over happiness when you are at your creative best. Like I mentioned before Tchaikovsky has made the most soothing compositions and the greatest masterpieces at his lowest points in life. The greatest and most famous compositions, lyrics, paintings, poems have come out of the most lowest or most depressing times of the artists.
I do speak out of experience. I AM going to attempt at boasting today. One of my college days, I was at one of the lowest bluest days in life. The whole day had gone wrong, the evening one of the most violent, abusive and disastrous. The only question in mind was 'why?' I decided to soothe the raging fire within with my only companion in life - Music. Guitar in hand, tears in eyes, I had thought I had made the slowest, worst, hate-filled composition ever. Thoughts were flowing through my fingers onto the strings non-stop for a long time with no inkling whether there was any acceptable, sensible music coming out of the sound-box. At ten-thirty in the night, conversations-before-sleep-time, tv noise, some music system at work would be the usual noise of the hour seeping in through the windows. That night was the most silent 10:30 pm ever. When I came out of my reverie, I found my dog sleeping at my feet, and I found my mom sleeping with a serene smile on her face (a view seen after many long months). The most shocking was the silence from my back-door neighbors. Next day Mom came home with compliments and a request from her to keep up with my 'Riyaaz'(practice)! I had gone through the most turbulent thoughts while playing that piece of music which I would never remember again yet it turned out to be a pacifying, soothing lullaby to the ones who were, by chance, forced to listen to it!!???
Your most depressing moments could be the ones you are at your creative best.
I leave it an open argument and a possibility.
Truth of one more fact! If you have been only an observer of many who have been down under, at their most depressed, and yet yourself haven't really been through that experience, you only have a mere understanding of how a depressing moment can be. Yes, you can prevent yourself from going through such instances... and yes, you could help a few catch the surface again...but do you really know yourself better???Do you know what your views are...?Are you an over obsessive optimist?Aren't you ignoring the weak points in you and your life?
There was another statement. Being mature at the right age!
First, Maturity does not mean understanding the real reason behind the presence of two different genders, in short, the presence of sex in our lives. No. Thats only one tinsy-winsy part of Life.
Maturity is the realization of the whole essence of Life, accepting AND giving equal space to other forms of living beings on this planet AND understanding the working of life with the solar system and our eternal dependence on it.
If you say yes to even one point below, I'm sorry to say you have skipped the exit-point out of the Circle of Life and might not be able to see its inner beauty and abundance from the outside till you are 60. Either that or you'll be lucky enough to be pulled out by someone after you've crossed 25...
1. you have been through school time crushes and infatuations
2. you have understood and accepted the purpose of sex only by the time you were 20
3. you have understood the essential haves-have nots and must dos for survival only by the time you've reached the age of 21
4. you were only attracted to the western culture's liberal attire and abusive language in your teens
5. you believe you became mature at the age of 21
6. you have preferred the luxurious teenage life where parents provide you with every material attraction you want
7. you find glittery stuff attractive and happening just because your friends say so
...there are many more...I'll stop here..
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